Tears’ Shed and We Must Create the Meaning of Life

Today was the funeral service for our friends. I didn’t know what to expect from how I was going to act before then. I was calm to a certain point but next thing I know, tears were coming out unstoppably as the service went on. I am still not quite sure what exactly it was but I understand it’s a combination of things.

Of course there was the initial sadness of losing a friend(M), especially one whom has a very kind heart and joyful personalities. I am not a person who goes around calling people kind. In fact, I’m pretty critical about it. It was through interaction and conversation that I realized how M is so thoughtful and really think about the thoughts and feelings of people on “the other side”. Something I consider as true kindness. The next thing really contributes is that the church where the service was held is the place where M and I were together groomsmen for our good friend(V) just a few months ago. It was also during that time that I got to know M even better. As the service went on, I was watching the parents…their expression – pain, sadness, helplessness – having to say goodbye to their only son. Then the last thing that broke the barrier, was V, who had to make special endeavor to come due to important personal affairs, rushed into the service later and was completely lost in tears on his knees… (as M and V were such great friend since college who reunited in the area after some career changes) Together with V and other friends, I just couldn’t help it any more.

Despite all that happening…life continues to move on and earth contines to spin. I still went to work after the service. All that’s happened only serves as reminder and reinforcement on my believes of the things I need to do. As we see here, life does not wait for us. If there is one less kind person like M in this world, then we need to fill that void with our own. We shall continue to strive for the people who have gone and make the world a better place for the ones to come. As such, we all have to be strong for the people who need us. We cannot hesitate on things that should be done now. Strive to be better and becoming stronger is the only option. I don’t believe in after-life, which is good because that leaves no room to be complacent now and f we are make things better, that means we have to act now.

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